Wednesday, May 30, 2012

I'm Still Here!

After several months of nothing, I'm feeling the need to blog again! Truly I didn't mean to stay away this long, it just happened. I got busy with daily activities and when I did sit down to write, I had nothing. I wouldn't call it writer's block so much as I just didn't know what to share on my little blog.

January I started a new job that I absolutely adore, an assistant professor position at a university I believe wholeheartedly in. Over the course of five months I learned so much about teaching dance, about teaching in general, and quite a bit about myself. Time flew by so quickly and I couldn't believe May came and my contract was already over. What's even a stranger though is the fact that I had completed my first full year of teaching in higher education. And I wasn't even 25 years old yet. Whoa.

Thinking back on where I was a year ago, sitting on a New York subway, completely defeated and desperately wondering what life had in store for me, I never could have imagined I would be completing my first contract at my dream school and looking ahead towards some other incredible opportunities. Let's just say Life shot me about five years into my future plans. I jumped ahead to a whole different point in my master plan and now I'm working on refiguring all I thought I was going to accomplish. 

My plans may have gotten jumbled, but I'm surprisingly okay with that. It's opening up new ideas for me and offering new paths. I'm feeling secure in what I've got ahead and excited for the new possibilities I'd once put on the shelf. I'm dreaming again about my future and that feels incredibly wonderful.

A long time ago I had this friend who said, "Write your plans in pencil, but give God the eraser." For the majority of my now adult life, I've been struggling with letting go of that need to plan out everything. I'm making it my goal to keep this reminder in mind every day because for once, I actually understand the full meaning of such a simple sentence.

So, that's the serious stuff. The fun stuff since February? Well, I turned 25 a couple of weeks ago. Quarter life crisis might explain the serious deep thoughts from earlier. Really it was a wonderful birthday. Had a picnic lunch at White Rock Lake with my parents and a lovely dinner at home with the family.

I'm going to be an aunt this August! My sister and brother-in-law are having a baby girl and I couldn't be more excited! Nannie Ju-Ju is going to buy Baby Bean her first pair of ballet shoes and pink tights!

Pyro Man and I are now 38 days out from our wedding! Whoo-hoo! Are we finished with our planning? Heck. No. There's a ton left to be done and I'm getting stressed out. Thank goodness for anti-biotics to keep the stress from popping up on my face too much...

I say there's a ton to do, and really there is, but I have to give us some credit. The dress is done....but I can't show you even though I'm dying to show someone the finished product. We've taken all of our pre-marital classes and have the ceremony picked out. We even picked out ceremonial music with the organist much to Pyro Man's delight. He loved our meeting with the organist, Mr. Conrad, and even convinced him to give us a private concert.

A few weeks ago I moved back home for the wedding and I've been going non-stop ever since. So why did I decide to sit down this morning? Maybe it's because I've missed running my fingers over the keys and spilling out thoughts and stories I love to share. Maybe it's the fact that I just got tired of wondering what would be appropriate to share or not share on here. Or maybe it's because over the last week I've seen several friends restart up their blog and it inspired me to do the same. In any case, I've missed this old blog and I just wanted to start it all up again. Happy Wednesday!

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